Your blue heart

I have been a professional actor in New York City, on film and on stage, for almost 20 years. "Your blue heart" is my first attempt as a writer and director. I was never interested in writing my own stories. However, when my estranged father died suddenly in 2016, I was ill-equipped in grieving for him. I did not know how to mourn, how to feel sorrow, for a man who had been out of my life for nearly 30 years. Then, out of nowhere, came the idea for "Your blue heart." I didn't have to contrive it into existence. It came into being as if it had always been there. It was the purest conception of art that I've ever experienced.

After shooting a teaser, completing a script, raising funds, casting, and assembling a team, I was ready to move forward with the project. However, a few challenges brought the film's progress to a halt, including a cancer diagnosis, personnel changes, and finally, the arrival of Covid-19. During the pandemic, I was inspired to re-imagine the approach and style of "Your blue heart," as influenced by these unprecedented experiences. Following through with this new vision and trajectory, our re-assembled team finally found ourselves on set.

Working on the set of "Your blue heart" has stirred in me a renewed appreciation for filmmakers of all specialties. For example, the stakes for what will define a work, what direction it will go, and its total vision, rests solely on a director's shoulders. This is an immense responsibility. Also, nothing that you watch on TV, streaming services, or the cineplex would exist without the technical competence/mastery, drive, organization, patience, curiosity, sensitivity, artistry, and yes, magic, of those working behind the camera. Filmmaking is a truly collaborative art form that blends everyone's creative and technical expression to fit neatly inside a frame. What an awe-inspiring process.