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My Hate Letter to Cycles and/or Self Harm

Shaurya after being fed up with his environment, comes together with his crew to point out the elephant in the room. After suffering in a dysfunctional family for most of his life and realising its virulent impact on his mother (Madhu), he convinces her to act in a media project, and tries to raise questions by masking the activity as an “actor’s exercise”. He attempts to create a facade to heal the damage his family has undergone due to the influence of an age-old force that has been passed on to and is hailed in most families in our country - Patriarchy. Shaurya’s father Naval lurks around during the process in order to keep surveillance and that’s exactly what he's been set up for. Along with this, he asks Madhu to perform a few activities to create physical discomfort for her whenever she responds in a way that is deemed unrewarding by them. The nature of this activity is questioned by the parents, especially Naval, as most of the questions are indirectly pointing fingers at him. Due to this, his true character is brought to the forefront. A confrontation breaks out due to the questions at hand, and it leads to an uncanny incident.

  • Harsh Vardhan Kumar
    Director
  • Harsh Vardhan Kumar
    Writer
  • Harsh Vardhan Kumar
    Producer
  • Jaivardhan Lakhera
    Key Cast
    "Vandit"
  • Vidur Chugh
    Key Cast
    "Shaurya"
  • Swati Sodhi
    Key Cast
    "Madhu"
  • Reuben Israel
    Key Cast
    "Naval"
  • Project Type:
    Experimental, Short
  • Runtime:
    20 minutes 24 seconds
  • Completion Date:
    July 22, 2023
  • Production Budget:
    970 USD
  • Country of Origin:
    India
  • Country of Filming:
    India
  • Language:
    English, Hindi
  • Shooting Format:
    Digital
  • Aspect Ratio:
    16:9
  • Film Color:
    Black & White
  • First-time Filmmaker:
    Yes
  • Student Project:
    No
  • 13th Mumbai Shorts International Film Festival-24
    Mumbai
    India
    December 10, 2023
    Best Film
  • 11th Noida International Film Festival-2024
    Delhi, NOIDA
    India
    January 28, 2024
    Best Film - Jury
  • Ayodhya Film Festival
    Ayodhya
    India
    December 2, 2023
    Best Experimental Film - Jury
  • Darbhanga International Film Festival
    Darbhanga
    India
    February 24, 2024
    Official Selection
  • Dadasaheb Phalke International Film Festival
    Mumbai
    India
    Official Selection (Contingency)
  • Aravali International Film Festival
    Delhi
    India
    April 6, 2024
    Official Selection
  • 8th Indian World Film Fest-24
    Hyderabad
    India
    March 10, 2024
    Official Selection
  • LAKECITY INTERNATIONAL FILM FESTIVAL
    Mumbai
    India
    February 24, 2024
    Official Selection
  • 9th Jaipur Film World 2024
    Jaipur
    India
    Semi-Finalist
  • 18th Mumbai International Film Festival
    Mumbai
    India
    June 18, 2024
    National Competition
  • Mumbai Indiefilm Festival 2024
    Mumbai
    India
    September 7, 2024
    Official Selection
  • Lake View International Film Festival

    India
Director Biography - Harsh Vardhan Kumar


Harsh Vardhan Kumar is a filmmaker—writer, director, and producer—whose work explores deep and socially resonant themes through the medium of short films and documentaries.

His debut short film, My Hate Letter to Cycles and/or Self Harm, was acclaimed and officially selected for screening at the NFDC’s Mumbai International Film Festival (MIFF), along with several other notable film festivals across India.

Currently, he is in the post-production phase for two documentary projects. The first, Unending Ends of A Loose Knot, delves into the lived experiences and systemic challenges faced by the Scheduled Caste community in India. The second, Notes on A Conditional Reform, provides an insightful examination of Nepalese houseworkers and their socio-economic realities.

In addition to these ongoing projects, Harsh has recently completed post-production on his latest short film, Judas Marie, further expanding his body of work with its unorthodox narrative and devising.

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Director Statement

I am aware this is not a masterpiece that is going to strike the audience instantaneously, but I am confident that it will hit the right spots. It has its own language in terms of dialogue and visuals that present an insight into my identity. That is the biggest achievement attached to this film for me and I hope the viewers also find that to be true. It's my first film as a director and I know about its highs and lows but still, I love this film for what it is, it's me and my family.