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How do you make things right when you don't even know how to start? It's a sensitive question but in those quiet moments when we discover an honest answer there is an avalanche of hope. When I first got sober, I had to be honest with myself and others for the mistakes I had made. It was a powerful and life-changing experience which was lived through many tiny, but potent, actions. I also felt the deep pain of grief recently when I lost my Grandmother, my Grandfather, and my Uncle in just a short period of time and had to get honest with myself about what I was feeling. I wanted to make a focused, intimate film, that reflected the universal experiences of grief so many of us feel when we have to let go, the search for connection when we need help, and the peace we can feel when we're finally honest. Over the past several years, the entire world experienced tremendous shared grief in the form of the Pandemic. Many people looked for ways to numb that pain and it affected them, their family, friends, co-workers, and neighbors. Addiction doesn't care if we're rich or poor; a doctor or a dropout. It doesn't discriminate. It destroys and divides without reservation. It ruthlessly takes ahold of our secrets and our pain in the darkness until we're too afraid to ask for help. Honesty is the antidote. I am grateful to our incredible cast, our Los Angeles based production crew, and our post production team in Puerto Rico for all of their generosity and love that made this film possible. “Life is tougher when you’re spinning alone.”