I am (not) a monster

‘To act is to begin something new’ said Hannah Arendt, one of the greatest thinkers of all time who passed away in 1975 and who coined the concept of the ‘banality of evil’. In this original film, learn about the thinking processes of activism and mechanisms of our risky thoughts. A most urgent film unravelling some of the reasons why Trump, Le Pen and others have captured people’s imaginations by reviving past ideologies. From dangerous plots to dangerous actions, you will hear about our collective fears both past and present but also encounter the contemporary monsters and actors of the future: the humanoids. Your guide in this adventurous journey is the alternative educator Nelly Ben Hayoun, who armed with puppets and dressed as Hannah Arendt, teases the greatest thinkers of our age whilst challenging them to an impossible pursuit; the search of the origins of knowledge.

I am (not) a monster features: political activist Noam Chomsky, Pussy Riot’s Nadezhda Tolokonnikova, Hannah Arendt’s students: Arjun Appadurai, Leon Botstein and Richard Bernstein, nonsense artist Novbumichi Tosa of Maywa Denki, robot maker Hiroshi Ishiguro, Japanese Living National Treasures: Bunraku puppeteer – Kanjuro Kiritake II, kimono master – Takayuki Takahashi, Noh Theatre master – Hisa Uzawa, Lord Mayor of Sheffield Magid Magid, cyborg artist Neil Harbisson and many more – students, alternative schools and brilliant thinkers.

  • Nelly Ben Hayoun-Stépanian
    Disaster Playground, International Space Orchestra
  • Nelly Ben Hayoun-Stépanian
  • Nelly Ben Hayoun-Stépanian
  • Christopher Hird
    Like It Is, In the Shadow of War, Shooting with Mursi
  • Noam Chomsky
    Key Cast
  • Nadya Tolokonnikova
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  • Magid Magid
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  • Neil Harbisson
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  • Project Type:
    Documentary, Experimental
  • Runtime:
    1 hour 37 minutes 57 seconds
  • Completion Date:
    November 1, 2018
  • Production Budget:
    65,000 USD
  • Country of Origin:
    United Kingdom
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    Ethiopia, Germany, Italy, Japan, Netherlands, United Kingdom, United States
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Director Biography - Nelly Ben Hayoun-Stépanian

Dubbed the ‘Willy Wonka of Design’, award-winning Director, Designer of Experiences and filmmaker Nelly Ben Hayoun-Stépanian is an explorer that aims to bring the sublime to life and who creates multi-dimensional experiential projects at the intersection of science, theatre, politics, music and design. In 2018, Nelly has been distinguished as the first on the list of top 50 women on the speaker circuit by The Drum Magazine; while in 2017, Creative Review named her one of the Creative Leaders 50, selecting 50 creatives across the EU that they felt were ‘driving change, not just within their organisation but in the world at large’. Dezeen selected her as one of the ’50 inspirational women in architecture and design’ while Wired awarded her, their inaugural Innovation Fellowship in 2014 with Icon magazine recognizing her as one of the top 50 designers ‘shaping the future’ for her pioneering “total bombardment” design philosophy and Indiewire nominating her as one of SXSW 2015 Highlights Women filmmaker.

Nelly is Designer of Experiences at the SETI (Search for Extraterrestrial Intelligence) Institute, course director and founder of the University of the Underground, Chief of Experiences at file transfer service company WeTransfer, a Vice chair of The Committee for the Cultural Utilization of Space (ITACCUS) at the International Astronautical Federation, a United Nations Advisor to the UN VR (Virtual Reality) labs and UN Education Goalkeeper 2018, an advisory board member at AIGA (American Institute for Graphic Arts) in Los Angeles and a visiting professor at the Royal College of Arts and the Architectural Association. In 2016, she was awarded with Central Saint Martins, University of the Arts London Teaching award.

Ben Hayoun is the author and director of three feature length documentaries. She was awarded one of the UK largest artistic awards, The Arts Council England Exceptional Award for her feature-length documentary Disaster Playground. Disaster Playground is following the chain of command in place in the event of hazardous asteroid impacting the earth. It was nominated for a Vision Award at SXSW 2015 and is distributed on Netflix North America and other digital platforms. Her latest documentary – I am (not) a Monster– is on the origins, power structures and mechanics of knowledge and the act of thinking.

Prior to this, Nelly assembled and directs the International Space Orchestra (ISO) – the world first orchestra of space scientists and astronauts from NASA and through this has collaborated with Grammy award-winning musicians such as Beck, Damon Albarn, Bobby Womack, The Prodigy, Penguin Café, Ed Banger Records, Savages and most recently Icelandic post-rock band Sigur Rós. Ben Hayoun’s first feature documentary, “The International Space Orchestra“, premiered at the International Film Festival in Rotterdam where it was acclaimed by critics as a “masterpiece” (ICO), a ‘real achievement’ (DOMUS), “as thrilling as watching a rocket launch” and “Spine Tingling” (Guardian).

When she is not making films, Nelly is a keynote speaker and has spoken worldwide about the value of experiential design practices in the context of outreach, community and education. Her work has been exhibited at the National Museum of China, MOMA, V&A, the MET and other leading design institutions.

In 2017, Dr. Ben Hayoun has launched the University of the Underground, a free postgraduate university based in the underground of nightclubs in London, New York City and Amsterdam, composed of dreamers of the day and supporting unconventional research practices, plurality of thinking and free and transnational education.

Nelly and her London based design studio have also worked and consulted for the likes of world-class clients including NASA, BBC, Lego, the Guardian, XL Recordings, MINI Innovation, Converse, AIGA (American Institute for Graphic Arts) and Mattel amongst many others.

Dr. Nelly Ben Hayoun-Stépanian received a BA in Textile Design at ENSAAMA Olivier De Serres (college of applied arts) in Paris, a MA with distinction from the Royal College of Arts in Design Interactions, she holds a PhD in Geography (Human geography and political philosophy) from Royal Holloway, University of London. Dr. Ben Hayoun and her doppelgängers currently split their time between Mountain View, London, Amsterdam and New York City.

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