Private Project

My heart is erasing

An intense and intimate portrait of a young boy with a secret.

  • Joshua Ben-Dylan
  • Joshua Ben-Dylan
  • Dalton Harrod
  • Joshua Ben-Dylan
  • Alex Csatari
    Key Cast
  • Christopher Harrod
    Key Cast
  • Courtney Dunbar
    Key Cast
  • Project Type:
    Experimental, Short, Student
  • Runtime:
    8 minutes 20 seconds
  • Completion Date:
    April 1, 2019
  • Production Budget:
    1,120 USD
  • Country of Origin:
    United States
  • Country of Filming:
    United States
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  • Student Project:
  • Purchase College Film Conservatory
    New York
    United States
    The Sol Turrell Award, Purchase College Film Conservatory's oldest and most prestigious honors. It's given based on the impact and originality of one's thesis film, and the hard work and vision that went into it.
  • Golden State Film Festival
    Los Angeles, California
    United States
    North American Premiere
    Official Selection
Director Biography - Joshua Ben-Dylan

Joshua Ben-Dylan is a New York City based artist exploring emotions and moments that are seldom communicated, telling stories through a lens that morphs one's view of the world around them. Film is one of many artistic vocations gifted to Joshua; they're currently working on their first feature film, fourth book of poetry, and second gallery showing of photography and visual art.

Their dream is to create all they can, joining together the different mediums of their work into a singular harmony of creative expression. To bring positivity, every day, to at least one person. For all the hate in the world, their work stands as a beacon of hope for all who need it.

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Director Statement

This film is a culmination of the hard truths I learned during my childhood. The heart of it deals with unspoken trauma and the confusing feelings I felt after my father’s death. Telling this story through past and present lenses, it shows how growing up with abuse has affected me and how my memories of the events still reside with me today.

I believe this project speaks for the countless people around the world who don’t often get to express the trauma they have survived. Children are incredibly impressionable and vulnerable. For adults to manipulate and hurt them is terrible and unimaginable. As much as it pains people to think about the atrocities that others go through, it takes more for those who have been hurt to express their pain. This is my story, one that was forced on me without my consent, one that I will share with anyone that will watch. I hope it can find a good home and can help those dealing with their own trauma to know they aren’t alone.

What you’ve gone through doesn’t define you, don’t let it consume you, grow from it.