Private Project

i get caught in loops

A disparate collection of 8MM tape inquires into PSTD and agoraphobia.

Gabe Meacher's first experimental film attempts to makes sense of the trauma of losing his mother during Covid. Themes of memory and alienation centre this untethered short.

  • Gabe Meacher
  • Jordan Richards
  • Digital Treasures
    Tape Conversions
  • John Barker
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  • Genres:
    experimental, expressive, tape, 8mm
  • Runtime:
    7 minutes 15 seconds
  • Completion Date:
    May 22, 2023
  • Production Budget:
    3,000 USD
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  • Shooting Format:
    8MM Tape
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Director Biography - Gabe Meacher

Gabe Meacher is a director and actor based in Toronto.

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Director Statement

After I lost my mother I began a spiral of chaos.

A seed of sorrow flourished in me as I laid in the bath for a year contemplating. The anxiety and deep longing I felt lead me to document my experiences using a camera I received as a gift from my mother. The Sony Handy-Cam that I cared little about was now damaged and desperately clinging on to an era where my mother lived - I related to it.

I documented my daily struggle for hope using this camera and the damaged footage spoke to me. This short is a representation of my current inner workings as captured by the camera my mother bought me decades ago.