Six Months

At first I lie in hospital
Watch the world go past
One blink for no, two blinks for yes
Communication fast

Eye pointing board
Is what I use next
Set of boxes on the sheet
Select a box, choose letter
Up, down, left, right for each

I want to speak again
Every atom of my being cries out
If only, if only
I could shout

Speech and language therapy now
Let’s me move my mouth a bit
Open my mouth
I go to speak, no sound comes out
Frustration just a bit

(Chorus)
I want to speak again
Every atom of my being cries out
If only, if only
I could shout

(Bridge)
The consultants in the room
They’re changing my breathing tube
Balloon in my throat
They’re taking it down
They’re asking me to speak

(Chorus)
I want to speak again
Every atom of my being cries out
If only, if only
Hang on now, I can shout!

It may be just a whisper
Croakiness for sure
But after 6 whole months of silence
It opens up the door

(Chorus)
I want to speak again
Every atom of my being cries out
Hang on now, hang on now
I can shout…I can shout

  • Jonathan Cooper Brough
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  • Jonathan Cooper Brough
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  • Michael Maramo
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  • Brian Holland
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  • Darren Rudge
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  • Project Type:
    Song, Film Score, Lyrics Only
  • Length:
    5 minutes 23 seconds
  • Completion Date:
    December 6, 2022
  • Country of Origin:
    United Kingdom
  • Language:
    English
  • Student Project:
    No
  • St. Albans Film Festival
    St. Albans
    May 7, 2014
    Best Student
  • Best Shorts
    Best Shorts
    August 19, 2015
    Documentary Short
  • Best Shorts
    Best Shorts
    July 8, 2015
    Health Medicine and Science
  • Media Innovation Awards
    Plymouth University
    November 9, 2015
    Student of the Year
Artist Biography

Before my injury I was a extremely active, I barley stopped to sit down, activities that I took part in included skiing (slalom racing) running on roads and track, cycling everywhere, rock climbing, cooking, playing football, badminton, throwing a diábolo in the air as high as I possibly could before catching it, with my arms outstretched in the sky above me, I even enjoyed racing go carts, driving my dads Dellow in car trials and auto tests. I was house captain at my local primary school and the ski instructor captain for the ski team at my secondary school, Marley grammar.

In February 2007 I was 18 and flew to Canada to train as a ski instructor on snow. I had just got my A level results meaning that I had an offer at my first choice, Swansea University to study Marine Biology. I’d been teaching as a ski instructor on my gap year at Gloucester dry slopes whilst also working as a kitchen assistant at the Woolpack, the local pub in Stroud, Gloucestershire to raise money for the trip. Going back to Canada, the course was incredible, I loved every second of it the snow skool motive was ‘best days of your life’ which definitely fitted. I have no regrets at all, the last thing I remember was finishing the day early and going back down from the slopes and feeling rubbish I’d been sick several times and I just knew that something wasn't right. The next day I woke up lying flat on my back in a hospital bed staring at the ceiling, with nurses surrounding me, I was petrified……what was going on…….. I then spent six months where I couldn’t speak at all, at first all I could do was blink, once for yes and twice for no. I was flown in an air ambulance from Calgary to Bristol following this I was transported by ambulance to Gloucester Royal Hospital stayed there in intensive care where I spent several months next I was taken by another ambulance to Salisbury spinal unit for rehabilitation, and it was here that I finally got my voice back again.

Following my injury I am now paralysed from the neck down, wheelchair bound and fully reliant on a ventilator 24/7 to breathe for me. I graduated from Plymouth university with a first class honours to study media arts in 2014. I have have been on several holidays in my chair, including a trip to the titanic studio in Belfast to see the filming of the tv series Game of Throwns, I’ve also collaborated with imperial collage London , I was going to be a pilot at the 2015 cybathlon (the Paralympics with robotics and new technologies) this was until I was prevented from taking part because I had a pacemaker. I now play a sport called Boccia at national level, I study Spanish at collage, sing and beat box at open mic nights. I’ve also taken part in numerous 10k races in my chair (which I drive using a control in my mouth) During lockdown I drove my chair up and down hills in my local area to the equivalent altitude of going from sea level up to the summit of Mount Everest and back down again to raise funds for the NHS.

It’s not the disability that defines you but who you are and the way you approach life.
When life gets tough, pick yourself up, dust yourself down and go out fighting!

Jonathan Broug

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When life gets tough, pick yourself up, dust yourself down and go out fighting!