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Self Pity

After the loss of his grandmother Frances. Max tries to end his life. As he fades, his grandmother visits him to remind him that he was born a fighter.

The bond that Max and Frances share is a bond that remains through her death. Frances helped her son Truman raise Max from the time he was born after the death of his mother during childbirth. While Truman remains a loyal and loving father, Max relies heavily on Frances for his emotional support. Frances' death takes Max by surprised and he spirals out of control, drinking and taking pills to stop the pain that he feels from her death.

  • AE
    Writer
    Hibiscus, Pudge Love, Frank, Sunday, Pure Grit
  • AE
    Director
    Pudge Love
  • AE
    Producer
    Fragile, Pudge Love
  • Cougar MacDowall
    Key Cast
    "Max"
  • Kathy McCort
    Key Cast
    "Frances"
  • Jay Bogdanowitsch
    Key Cast
    "Truman"
  • Project Type:
    Short, Student
  • Runtime:
    6 minutes
  • Completion Date:
    September 11, 2018
  • Production Budget:
    50 USD
  • Country of Origin:
    Bahamas
  • Country of Filming:
    United States
  • Language:
    English
  • Shooting Format:
    Digital
  • Aspect Ratio:
    16:9
  • Film Color:
    Color
  • First-time Filmmaker:
    Yes
  • Student Project:
    Yes
  • Deltas of Charlotte Foundation
    Charlotte
    United States
    January 18, 2019
    Charlotte, NC
    Official Selection
  • Direct Monthly Online Film Festival
    Online
    United States
    March 1, 2019
    Online
    Official Selection
  • Mindfield Film Festival
    Albuquerque
    United States
    Official Selection
  • South Film and Arts Academy Festival
    Rancagua
    Chile
    April 16, 2019
    Official Selection
  • South Film and Arts Academy Festival
    Rancagua
    Chile
    April 16, 2019
    Chile
    Best Student Short Film
  • First Time Filmmaker Sessions
    Pinewood Studios
    United Kingdom
    April 14, 2019
    United Kingdom
    Official Selection
  • Five Continents International Film Festival
    Puerto La Cruz
    Official Selection
Director Biography - AE

A Bahamian by birth, a global citizen by choice. An Award-Winning Designer, AE is also a dedicated Writer, Director, and Producer based in Los Angeles and Florida.

While a graduate student at Full Sail University AE has written, directed, edited and produced numerous shorts.

AE has also swum with Humpback Whales in The Silver Banks, Dolphins in the Great Bahama Banks, and Pigs in the Exumas, dove Dean's Blue Hole in Long Island, Bahamas, lived on a 300ft wreck in the middle of nowhere for 45 days, sailed across the Atlantic, traveled throughout the Islands of The Bahamas on a 15ft inflatable dinghy with a 55hp engine, camped in mangroves, survived mosquitoes, iguanas, and wild hogs.

She splits her time between Los Angeles, California and her country of origin - Nassau, The Bahamas with her dogs, Praline, Paco, Pappas, and Oscar.

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Director Statement

The film that you're viewing "Self Pity" is a story about the relationship that I had with my grandmother Dolores Treco-Wells, we were so connected in life that we would finish each other's sentences. I grew up with her on her farm, making guava jam, picking mangoes, growing fruits, and vegetables from scratch and cooking.

My grandmother taught me how to cook, instilled a strong work ethic and always told me that I could do anything. She was my keel and even though she's no longer physically here with me, she is still my keel.

When she died 2 years ago at 92, I was in California and not there to see her before she passed (the guilt of not being there, still haunts me). It took me by surprise and to this day I am still heartbroken. I'm not someone who believes in the afterlife, but I believe that my heart was so broken that my grandmother could not let me continue, because she knew that I was broken. I fell into a deep depression and I will admit I was ready to die, the pain of not being able to call her and talk to her was a lot ( I found my self-driving at times and calling her on my mobile, only to hear the phone ring and realize she was not on the other end), not being able to fly home and sit next to her and just hold her hand is still unbearable.

At my lowest, she came to me one night in my dreams and the conversation that we had is written word for word in "Self Pity".

This film "Self Pity" is very personal, because the poem (Self Pity) written by DH Lawrence is the poem that my grandmother would recite to me as a kid, and made me recite throughout my life.

I believe it was her way of preparing me for everything that I've faced and endured in my life, and even her death.

I've attached some pictures of me and my grandmother, just so you could see the relationship and why she IS so SPECIAL to me.